Alay | 45 | Secretes

Plunge into the endless depth, bringing my whole heart This is my dive This is my ocean Oh, there's a pearl, so beautiful tho dirt covers the surface; hiding it's aura of the most elegant May I keep it; clean it; have it for ever?

Said hello here and there, and received warm welcome. I’m not forgetting what I’ve been holding onto, but I’m opening myself for a better chance of picking the most suitable for me, so that there will be no regret. Yes, I have a multiple choice now.

Sombre, like there’s something you want to hold on tight but you have not enough energy to do so. My nephew got cataract while his age hasn’t reach a full year yet. This is a terrible loss for us but the hope is still there. It is curable through operation. But since there’s age restriction we have to wait for some years. Keep strong, dear. We all wish you to recover your health soon. Why do we value something more often after we have lost it?

Wow, such a lazy writer I am. Period. I wonder if the time spent would be a lesson to me or just something that flew away without any remarking. Now it is time to recall those memories. So here we go. Well, earlier this year I was busy with the English Olympiad in the campus. I was the secretary of the committee. Well, it was an interesting experience though I had some secretary jobs before. Maybe because we invite high school students that made it a fresh challenge to me. We struggle for the preparation of this Olympiad in less than a month, imagine that; an event inviting high schoolers from the whole city in such a short time. The result was not bad, really. We got 61 participants and it didn’t look like some dull competition. A good one for a starter. And on February I moved from Jalan Karya Bakti to Jalan Eka Rasmi, moving from one housemate to five. Then on the end of April we moved to Jalan Sisingamangaraja. You can tell how many story could happen around that amount of boys ...

Contemplating of what have I had for the past years, the good sides. Yes, I have found lots of true friends. Yes, I have made an achievement that I can be proud of; best department of the organisation when I was in charge as the head of it; champion of a small football tournament as a captain of an unfavored team; runner-up in another tournament captaining newcomers; successfully held up an annual celebration as the chief of committee which consists of women. In contrary to what that I have had in my mind - that I can't lead a group - I have a good record. This is a rare occurance to be aware to my own positive values. So, thinking positively, this might be a good reminder to start to think of when I get caught in negativity. Right now I'm leading a class full of female teenagers (and one boy). I felt hard the first time I was appointed by them classmates. But in time I have learnt how to face problem by problem. Now, tho I am still half-heartedly saying this, but I hope it...

Bro Gimana kabar gebetan Lo? | Udah putus! | Loh, kapan jadiannya? | Putus asa maksudnya T_T | :( Ngahahaha !! — BERITA HUMOR (@BeritaBodor) December 27, 2013

Gw ga peduli mau ini dibilang cuma khayalan, lebay, atau cuma obsesi, dan lain-lain yang sejenisnya yang berbau "ignorant". GW KANGEN "DIA". Entahlah, buat gw, dia itu istimewa. Mungkin terlalu istimewa buat gw.  Pendekatan sudah dilakukan, tapi gw jadi ga enak hati sendiri klo kelamaan ngedeketin tanpa ada kepastian akan apa yang selanjutnya dilakukan. Karena itu sejak beberapa waktu terakhir gw mulai mengurangi frekwensi komunikasi dengan dia. Berat memang melakukannya. Karena ya gitu, kangen. Ngelupain dia? Plis deh.. bahkan temen dan kenalan yang lama nggak ketemu kadang berlalu-lalang di mimpi dan pikiran gw. Apalagi yang seistimewa ini.. Gw lagi senang aja inget dia, membayangkan bisa berbagi kebahagiaan. Gw sedih aja inget dia, berandai-andai dia yang menemani gw mengurangi kesedihan. Gimana bisa lupa coba? Karena itu gw diam. Tapi ya gitu, kangen. Kapan gw punya cukup keberanian untuk nanyain satu kalimat itu? Rasanya seperti hipokrit d...