Alay | 45 | Secretes

Just ask me. I will do it. Quietly.

I feel sorry for myself for being so negative. This is what I've become. But this is not what I want to preserve. I want to be good, be better, be the best. Bear with me.

The most secure person for keeping a big secret is to the one who always feels unsecure to speak it to someone else. The most secure person for keeping a big secret is to the one who can give you good advices about the matter. The most secure person for keeping a big secret is ... no one. But.. Why do secret exist? Why do I have secrets? Why does it have to be a secret? If I just free myself. But what will happen if I do that?

A self-note. For my foolish parts. An idiot. And idiot.  I screwed up many things in my past. Will there still be a bright future?  Why? Why? Why? That's the questions questioning.. Demanding a satisfying answer.  But there's no real satisfying answer. Satisfaction is you. So, decide. But how do I decide when everything is so blurry, that you barely see anything clear enough? You can't wait. There's no more time to lose. So what should I do? I can't do this. I can't do this. Yes, you can. And you know you can sense it too. That someone out there is there with you, supporting you. I know! I know! But what's the use of those illusional support? How would I know if they are really supporting me? I don't know. Meh, I'm enough with illusions. I'll leave. I'll be on my own. Again? Yes. But this time it'll be different.  Don't you need someone to be with you?  I don't know.

Been on Ubuntu for 2 weeks now. Now I can say that it's a good Operating System, not like the old days. It has the good looking (better than Windows, but that's just my opinion), lots of good application for anything you want to do with. And I'll say this once, it's free, no piracy. Piracy has been a big issue nowadays. I am aware of that since the first time I understand what an original software is. Since paying for softwares is not in my "i want to do it soon" list, I think that moving to Linux is the best option. And Ubuntu is my choice. But then when it comes to gaming, and I mean big games like those multi-DVD sized games, or some MMORPG, this is where Ubuntu lacks support from games developers. So for now, I'm going to dual-boot. Until there is a better support for gaming on Linux. :)