Alay | 45 | Secretes

I always envy her when she's tired after work or study. I want to work and study so hard that I get tired, and go home, and rest in her arms. Because that's what I want to do to her now. To make her feel good by having a good rest. I want to massage her tired body, I want to prepare nourishing food or drink for her, I want to embrace her, I want to hear her stories until she goes to sleep. Hope that will happen soon. We are realistic about our physical distance. But our heart is so close.  Wow writing that makes me reminded of Metallica's song, Nothing Else Matters: So close no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trusting who we are And nothing else matters Never opened myself this way Life is ours, we live it our way All these words I don't just say And nothing else matters Trust I seek and I find in you Every day for us something new Open mind for a different view And nothing else matters

You are very precious.

So lovely So kind So beautiful So sweet So cute So funny So smart So understanding Together with your imperfections You are so perfect Event: She's on vacation yet still finds the time to call me. <3

I felt very exhausted because I didn't have enough sleep fixing a computer, and played table tennis in the morning.  But somehow.. whenever I feel her presence, I feel the energy regenerate inside me. I feel my body is recovering tho I hadn't have any more sleep. Seeing her makes me feel calm, happy, relaxed, comfortable. Wow. Experiencing the power of love firsthand is truly a wondrous experience. I love her so much.

I really hope she liked my surprise appearance wearing batik, because I like that idea too. I wonder what can I do for her for next year and upcoming years. Yes, I want to stay with her for a very long time, hopefully eternally.  She is very special. She is very lovely. Hope I can witness her achieving whatever her dreams are.

I really appreciate your willingness  to stay with me when I'm happy  to cheer me up when I'm mad or sad  I really appreciate every second that you spend with me  I loved you because..  because I love you  I just love you  I don't really know where to start an explanation about loving you  It just happened and I am so glad that the feelings resonates  And now you're making me loving you more and more  Thank you, thank you, thank you  I really hope the day when we live together will come soon  No matter what kind of obstacles I have to face before coming to that day  I will find a way to get there  to meet and live with you  I really want to show you my feelings  I really want you to know that I love you as a whole  I love your excellencies, I love your flaws   I really want to show you that my wish of living happily together is a serious wish  I really want to prove that I am the best for you  I really want you to realise that I'm not exaggerating when I say that yo

I don't know when did it start, but today I'm very very happy. She starts making fun of me and she's so funny. She is doing things the way she likes it, and I like it. She is in love, I am in love. I don't understand how love works, but I know that my feeling for her is real, and her feeling for me is real. I want to stay with her. Live together with her. I want her to stay happy with me, because I'm always happy with her. Love is mutual give and take. But still I don't know why she loves me Does love need a reason?

Sometimes I like to look at details so much that I tend to forget looking from wider perspective.  I need to open my eyes wider.