Alay | 45 | Secretes

Several days without any post actually felt like I owe something to this blog. And the fact that my head was always filled with ideas made it worse. Someday I’ll regret it, maybe. But for now, let us leave those bad feelings and talk about something more interesting other than grievances. Look at the picture. Ain’t I handsome? Yes, I am, thank God. Well, everybody is beautiful. I can easily find a person’s beauty from one way or another. And that’s also why somehow it’s easy for me to find out a person’s intention. I’m able sense them, somehow. The baby is my nephew, Zein Malique. He’s 10 months old now, and I really love to play with him because it’s not troublesome to take care of him. He doesn’t cry a lot. And you know what, the first time he made a hand gesture is when I waved him goodbye and he responded to that by waving back at me. Even his mother was surprised. It is one unforgettable feeling. Speaking of unforgettable feeling. I remember there’s one moment when a lady smil...

That hurts. :(

Sebuah bidak kecil  Berjalan lurus ke depan  Selangkah demi selangkah  Saat terhalang  Tidak ada banyak pilihan  Hanya menanti kepergian penghalang  Atau tertarik umpan untuk menyimpang  Atau mati  Karena Pion tidak pernah melompat  Karena Pion tidak pernah mundur 

Belakangan ini kayaknya gw sering banget mikirin sesuatu yang 'kebetulan' terjadi. Ya, saat sendiri gw suka merenungkan berbagai hal, bermain dengan logika. Mengapa mereka begini, mengapa ini begitu, bagaimana jika begini/begitu; termasuk kebetulan-kebetulan yang terjadi terhadap diri gw.  Saat ini, ada hal yang sangat mengusik pikiran gw. Yaitu pesan yang muncul setiap gw sudah mencapai titik dimana gw sangat gelisah. Pesan itu sederhana, dan hanya berisi kata-kata yang biasa, tidak ada bahasa yang rumit. Namun kehadiran pesan tersebut memberikan sebuah tenaga untuk kembali kuat, menenangkan pikiran.  Yang gw belum habis pikir, apa harus gelisah tingkat tinggi dulu baru pesan itu akan datang? Kalau suatu saat gw mencapai tingkat dimana gw cukup kuat untuk bisa menguasai kegelisahan, apakah pesan itu akan tetap datang?  Gw pasti akan menjadi semakin kuat, semakin matang. Dengan atau tanpa pesan tersebut.    Namun demikian, gw tetap berterimakasih. Kebetulan juga...

I've got a wish, that everyone is living in happiness. No fight, no tear, no hard feelings.  And leave all the pressure just to me.

Went back from Jambi to Sidimpuan for exam.  Turns out that I can't join the examination.  I know my mistakes, and I'll face the consequences.  It's just like the old days.  Just like the old days.   The real test starts again. Will I fail again?

-Reader/Advisor You're good. Really good. And the timings are amazingly almost always perfect. Fill me with good knowledges. More, and the more I'm enjoying it.  While the fact is, I never know how this could happen.   PS: Acehnese truck driver, Keritang, July 6th 2012. (Just a note to myself)