Alay | 45 | Secretes

Dapat pesanan bikin website dari ji Fadhiel, untuk IAAJ (Ikatan Alumni al-Azhar Jakarta). Katanya pake Wordpress aja. Jadi mulai semalam nyoba install Wordpress di laptop nan jadul ini (Macbook early 2009, OSX Snow Leopard) dan baru saja berhasil setelah dengan seksama mengikuti arahan dari sini . Alhamdulillah. :) Nanti malam mau hunting template, baru diserahkan ke ji Fadhiel untuk diolah.

Sometimes I have no clue about what is happening, the plan that took so much time tinkering on it has gone to waste as simple as not thinking at all. Then I don't even know what is to plan anymore. Then somehow something made me thinking of making a new plan. Then it crumbles again. That's the circulation of my life, so far. I don't plan on giving up hope. I want my life to be remembered as one who never surrender to life itself.

Plunge into the endless depth, bringing my whole heart This is my dive This is my ocean Oh, there's a pearl, so beautiful tho dirt covers the surface; hiding it's aura of the most elegant May I keep it; clean it; have it for ever?

Said hello here and there, and received warm welcome. I’m not forgetting what I’ve been holding onto, but I’m opening myself for a better chance of picking the most suitable for me, so that there will be no regret. Yes, I have a multiple choice now.

Sombre, like there’s something you want to hold on tight but you have not enough energy to do so. My nephew got cataract while his age hasn’t reach a full year yet. This is a terrible loss for us but the hope is still there. It is curable through operation. But since there’s age restriction we have to wait for some years. Keep strong, dear. We all wish you to recover your health soon. Why do we value something more often after we have lost it?

Wow, such a lazy writer I am. Period. I wonder if the time spent would be a lesson to me or just something that flew away without any remarking. Now it is time to recall those memories. So here we go. Well, earlier this year I was busy with the English Olympiad in the campus. I was the secretary of the committee. Well, it was an interesting experience though I had some secretary jobs before. Maybe because we invite high school students that made it a fresh challenge to me. We struggle for the preparation of this Olympiad in less than a month, imagine that; an event inviting high schoolers from the whole city in such a short time. The result was not bad, really. We got 61 participants and it didn’t look like some dull competition. A good one for a starter. And on February I moved from Jalan Karya Bakti to Jalan Eka Rasmi, moving from one housemate to five. Then on the end of April we moved to Jalan Sisingamangaraja. You can tell how many story could happen around that amount of boys ...

Contemplating of what have I had for the past years, the good sides. Yes, I have found lots of true friends. Yes, I have made an achievement that I can be proud of; best department of the organisation when I was in charge as the head of it; champion of a small football tournament as a captain of an unfavored team; runner-up in another tournament captaining newcomers; successfully held up an annual celebration as the chief of committee which consists of women. In contrary to what that I have had in my mind - that I can't lead a group - I have a good record. This is a rare occurance to be aware to my own positive values. So, thinking positively, this might be a good reminder to start to think of when I get caught in negativity. Right now I'm leading a class full of female teenagers (and one boy). I felt hard the first time I was appointed by them classmates. But in time I have learnt how to face problem by problem. Now, tho I am still half-heartedly saying this, but I hope it...