For What I Got To Re-Remember, Patience (Part 2)

so here i am again. the last post was far from over yet. there're still alot of things to say here. it's just when i write and thought about another stuff, it gets me immediately confused. so last time i (actually) decided to put a comma on that last paragraph. and here we go again. it won't end in this part as i think of a long story.

whoever read my posts may actually think that i got some mental disorder. and yes, i have to admit that i am. i can feel it. it all starts when i thought that my life will end soon (-er than today). and that sucks. it's just a while for me when i'm the one who thinks that i got nothing to be proud of, nothing to share with anyone except this blog and some special friends who kept in supporting me (while being aware or not of my situation), and the majority already put a label on me as "a loser", even though they didn't forget to leave me some wisdom. hell that sucks. but that's what happens on earth when you can't prove your existence.

so that was all the complaints. that's the background for this story. the time when i lose my "sanity" and began to "forget" what we call it "patience". all those words in quotations are giving a big influence on my current character.

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