Lost and Lonely

Who or what am I trying to impress when it feels like no one would appreciate my presence, and the dream is far from reach, and the time feels synchronously quick and long. Yes, everyone think about their selves first. I just don't know what to think about myself. I'm walking down a path, guideless and clueless. Perhaps that's why people don't need my presence, because I even don't know what is my presence for.

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