Selfish

Is it selfish if I want you to stay with me? Will you be happy?

Honestly, I'm afraid that you will regret for being with me at some point. 
Honestly, I want you, I want to be with you. 
I am a very happy person from the moment you said that you like me too. It's been a year, a very rare year in my life timeline. 

You make me feel special, you make me feel loved, you make me feel happy.

And you are my special one, you are my love, you are the person that I always wish happiness.

This is the first time I'm getting this mutual passion and respect, and I want it to last forever.

Is it selfish?

Anyway..

I don't want to force you to stay with me. I will never do.
I know you will be fine with or without me.
I know you have a bright future whichever path you take.
I know you.

I can only keep a deep wish and pray. 
That whatever you decide will be the best for your happiness.

Tho It'll be hard to say goodbye to you if you decide to not to stay with me anymore. 
It's always been that way; even just saying goodbye for ending a call feels hard for me. 
Because I really like your presence. 
I really like your warmth. 
I really like you. 

What do you feel?
What do you think?
What will be your decision?


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