Alay | 45 | Secretes

We do love you. We are aware that you have done many things for us since we were nothing. But since we began learning things, you have showed so many bad examples to us, and keeping it up. And this, is not a healthy thing for us. You don't really know us now. You just keep guessing. You were blinded by your own bad habit. But we know each of us specifically. We are not like you, we're not the type of those who are good in lying or pretending. When we dislike something, some of us will express it, and some will keep silent, but never act like we like it. That's what we learnt, naturally, instinctively. That's what kept us steady, even when you make troubles on us. We know each of our position, we are a solid team. You are a good example for a bad example. That's the good thing. But for being a good source of good examples, you are a minority. So please, forgive us, that when you're gone, most of us may not shed our tears. But of course, we always pray the bes...

I can’t really tell what is it, or who is it. The only thing that I can tell is that after taking some time to tinker again, I found out that I’ve never been consistent in –literally- anything, except keeping my feeling towards you. Like I was naturally born with it, I never complain about it. I’m always able to take it in a positive way when it’s about you. Really, this is strange for me. As I am increasingly getting known by people near me as a short-tempered boy, yes I can feel their fear of myself getting mad at them (it’s a long other story to be told, which I prefer not to leak it here), I never felt any anger whenever you didn’t answer me. It’s just pure sadness, which is always easily erased by your honest kind words. I don’t know if you’re hiding something. All I know is you are always kind, to me at least. But then, I wonder if you are feeling the same way the way I do, or is that the normal you, who treat any friend ...

Several days without any post actually felt like I owe something to this blog. And the fact that my head was always filled with ideas made it worse. Someday I’ll regret it, maybe. But for now, let us leave those bad feelings and talk about something more interesting other than grievances. Look at the picture. Ain’t I handsome? Yes, I am, thank God. Well, everybody is beautiful. I can easily find a person’s beauty from one way or another. And that’s also why somehow it’s easy for me to find out a person’s intention. I’m able sense them, somehow. The baby is my nephew, Zein Malique. He’s 10 months old now, and I really love to play with him because it’s not troublesome to take care of him. He doesn’t cry a lot. And you know what, the first time he made a hand gesture is when I waved him goodbye and he responded to that by waving back at me. Even his mother was surprised. It is one unforgettable feeling. Speaking of unforgettable feeling. I remember there’s one moment when a lady smil...

That hurts. :(

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Belakangan ini kayaknya gw sering banget mikirin sesuatu yang 'kebetulan' terjadi. Ya, saat sendiri gw suka merenungkan berbagai hal, bermain dengan logika. Mengapa mereka begini, mengapa ini begitu, bagaimana jika begini/begitu; termasuk kebetulan-kebetulan yang terjadi terhadap diri gw.  Saat ini, ada hal yang sangat mengusik pikiran gw. Yaitu pesan yang muncul setiap gw sudah mencapai titik dimana gw sangat gelisah. Pesan itu sederhana, dan hanya berisi kata-kata yang biasa, tidak ada bahasa yang rumit. Namun kehadiran pesan tersebut memberikan sebuah tenaga untuk kembali kuat, menenangkan pikiran.  Yang gw belum habis pikir, apa harus gelisah tingkat tinggi dulu baru pesan itu akan datang? Kalau suatu saat gw mencapai tingkat dimana gw cukup kuat untuk bisa menguasai kegelisahan, apakah pesan itu akan tetap datang?  Gw pasti akan menjadi semakin kuat, semakin matang. Dengan atau tanpa pesan tersebut.    Namun demikian, gw tetap berterimakasih. Kebetulan juga...

I've got a wish, that everyone is living in happiness. No fight, no tear, no hard feelings.  And leave all the pressure just to me.